What's going on with you 2.0?

YAY!!! :smt109

 

Stressing. Ugh.

uhm...I'm still open for commissions if anyone around here is interested in having original artwork.

...portraits are great Valentine's gifts? I've got a scanner that works now, too, so making digital copies for prints (which are only a couple dollars at like Office Depot and Kinko's) is much easier.

bah. >.<

 

Hey DH, please check your asksweetnikki email address. I sent you something to take a look at. Thanks!

 

My daughter had the day off of school today, so my parents watched her.

I went to pick her up after work and I was telling my parents about some compliments I've received over the past couple of weeks.

One of the compliments was from a guy I work with who asked me if I was still doing Weight Watchers because I was looking really good. I said, no, I'm just doing my own thing now. He said, well, you don't need to do anymore, you look great.

Not a second after I got those words out of my mouth, my mom said, don't listen to him. You still have a lot of weight to lose.

Nice, huh? This is the kind of negativity I grew up with. :smt090

But, that didn't diminish my happiness with the compliments. I've learned to not take to heart anymore, the stuff comes out of my parents' mouths.

 

that is horrible:smt022especially when it comes from the people that are suppose to love you unconditionally...believe it or not there comes a point and you may just not be there yet where you can actually sit down with that negative person and confront the situation...i had that very conversation as soon as my son learned to talk...as soon as i realized that he was aware of what was being said and what was going on...I had all the power to just nip all that negativity...i didn't want my son to grow up around all of that nonsense...

 

Ah Bookie :smt056 some people are just so lost on how to interact with the rest of the world. I tell my kids the truth, but not like that, and there are times where it's just best to keep your mouth shut if you don't have something positive to say. There's constructive criticism, and then there's just tacky meanness. My Mom is good at the tacky, she doesn't mean to be that way, she just doesn't have that filter that most of us have to clean up whatever she's thinking before it leaves her mouth. She will say the most horrific things to her kids, but I'm always expecting the worst so it doesn't bother me. My sisters on the other hand still get really offended every time. You can't change them, I think the best you can do is follow Lipstick's lead and raise your daughter to not only understand how inappropriate that is, but that it's hurtful. And of course you are a good mother and you don't treat your daughter that way, and you should take both comfort and pride in that.

 

I've kind of become the rebel in the family (at my age, LOL) because I won't take their negativity anymore. They're very controlling. I've tried off and on since college to make them see the err of their ways, but they don't think they have a problem. So, now I'm rebelling. (Isn't that supposed to happen when you're a teenager??)

Thank you ladies.

It took me until only a couple of years ago to realize the role my parents played in my low self-esteem and my lack of self-worth growing up and into my 20s.

I won't continue that pattern with my daughter. She's told all the time how much I love her and how much she means to me. I tell her how happy I am that she picked me to be her mother. Sometimes she asks me, "mommy, how did I pick you?" I tell her, "you were up in heaven and looked down and said I want her to be my mom". LOL. So corny, but I want her to always feel that she's loved and that she's the most important person in my life and what an amazing little person she is.

I don't want her to grow up with the same self-imposed limitations I did. I'm starting over now, and I want her to always feel like she can accomplish all she puts her mind to, and that I'll support her efforts.

I know my parents loved us, but they really didn't know how to show it (and still don't). I hope that I'm doing alright in that regard with my little one. Parenting is not easy!! LOL.

 

:smt023 Anyone who manages to not only not repeat their parent's mistakes, but manages to also overcome them, has my utmost respect. A lot of people become who they are because of the way they were raised, and some of us become who we are in spite of it.

 

thanks you lot...!!!!!

 

I'm crying right now.

 

Why are you crying?

 

Eh. I'm crying, because of this wonderful show from Japan. Just saw the finale, that leaves my eyes swimming with the tears. It hurts so much, because that show reminds me of Doctor Who. None of this past shows I've felt like this before!

New show premiered next weekend, I'm looking forward to it. But will miss this great series very much! That is, I want my children to see this program in the future, it will be great for them to learning Japanese language.

 

see what i mean.

 

There was a blackout in my area. I couldn't sleep so I was fucked. No tv and internet and no home phone. I wanted to eat something, but since I already had cereal, I only had stuff to make or reheat. I went to use my portable dvd player and the battery was dying. I was busy texting folks but then my celly gave me a warning message about the battery dying. It's not like I could drive to go anywhere. Cause for one, it was still dark out and the hallway outside of my door was pitch black as well as the stairwell. Even if it were light out, I wouldn't be able to pull the car out cause it's an electric gate. I tried to read, but only had a little flashlight and a candle and wasn't trying to strain my eyes. I kept thinking about the people in Haiti and the homeless to tell me to put on my big girl pants and it'll pass soon enough.

Then I wasn't able to sleep, so I finally fell asleep and had to go to my aunts Bday party and I went, but I felt like shit. I couldn't even enjoy myself.

 

Sorry your night got ruined IB. What's causing the blackout, is it the crazy flooding and mudslides?

 

it's been the heat over here. just last week it was 104 and we were all just lying here in the heat wishing for something.....it took the energy company to get us back up in 4 hours.

 

Thank you my co-host.

In my area, it was just heavy rain and wind.

I also had/have a leak in my window sill. I asked the manager about the gutters and she said they were cleaned when we had all that rain the other week. Obviously something is up cause it's dripping from the inner part of the window opening. Argh!

 

Super bowl party today for us students. I'm in charge of the grill. >.< But I'd rather be sleeping! I don't even like football...

 

What the hell are you talking about? :smt012

 

I love football. A little part of me dies when the Superbowl ends every year.

Go Saints!!! :smt023