What's going on with you 2.0?

I am honestly very sorry to hear that. You need someone to talk to. There is a lot of anger and fear in you that you have to release. I know, what I am talking about. Otherwise his actions, his abuse will influence your further life.

If you don't find somebody, let me know.. I'll jump over to you.

 

Moving forward just be strong and know it was not you and seek help from groups that deal with such issues

There is no reason, none that gives any guy the right to do that, NONE

There are other women who have gone through what you have and take heed that they have risen above it, despite coming across such scumbags.

You will overcome it with time.

 

LS, I hear you. I can empathize. I was beaten and raped by the best friend of one of my good friends when I was 16.

I just want you to know that you are not alone. It feels that way, and those mixed feelings you have are a pretty normal response. I'm a trusting person, too, and it's been that way to my detriment more than once.

Rape trials are difficult. I would suggest that you absolutely get a counselor and a trusted friend. The counselor can help you where your friend cannot, and your friend can be there to hold you and let you cry when your counselor cannot.

Trust me when I say, there was *nothing* and I do mean NOTHING that you did that you need to feel guilty about. Being trusting is not a fault, especially if it is someone that you knew- you had no reason not to trust them. Remind yourself every day that it wasn't your fault- because it wasn't. Remind yourself every day that you are a beautiful, strong, wonderful woman who will make it through this. I know you will. But please, do not try to do it alone.

I hope you can surround yourself with family and friends that you trust right now. You will need them. You will need to tell them what you need from them, just as much as they will need you to tell them.

Take care of yourself...and if there's anything that I can do- lend an ear or whatever- my e-mail address is in my WWBM profile. Also, this is a link for an online rape and sexual abuse survivor message board. I used to spend quite a bit of time on here, and I know many others who have found solace there.

Pandora's Aquarium: Rape & Sexual Abuse Survivor Message Board

Lots of love to you, LS. Stay strong.