hope solo and black crush ...interesting

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Why are you so uncomfortable?

 

LOLOL! I hadn't head that before. I like it!

 

This is going to sound egotistical. I have a fair amount of what I guess could be called charisma. I have the tendency to become the center of attention - to end up being the one in the center, telling the jokes, having people flock to me in group situations. But I'm not comfortable, because I feel like the person they're flocking to IS that charisma, that persona - not the woman who wakes up in the morning with her hair askew, not the woman who cries when she hurts, or who gets angry or is in any way less than in control and in charge. I end up feeling like I have to perform that persona like a trained seal.

It's just not comfortable to have to be "on" all the damned time. It gets tiring.

 

Babe, I really don't think this is an age thing. I think it's a personality thing. Some people crave attention, they love the spot light, and some abhor it. I can believe that for some the desire for attention might dissipate as they mature, but I think for a lot that's just a constant desire. To test this I asked my 19 year old daughter if she would be okay with this type of public display, and she stated absolutely not. She'd feel put on the spot by this and would not find that endearing at all. In fact she commented that she wouldn't appreciate it from someone she'd been dating and knew well either. She wouldn't appreciate being part of a public spectacle. I think it's just a matter of personality for people like us, the attention is just uncomfortable.

 

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_U5HpeA_WSo

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I like that. I *am* shy, in fact. That persona which gets all the attention isn't me, if you like...she's who everyone else thinks I am. But she's not *all* of me, and the part that's too soft or too real to be comfortable exposing, who wouldn't meet the world's expectations - she is for in private.

 

Ach! Siggy!!

One of the nice things about being older is that I'm fully aware of my contradictions, my psychological quirks, and I've accepted them. I like me as I am, foibles and all

 

Damn you mofos are so vaunerable who knew? lol
We're all humans and there are settings where I feel more comfortable than others but I have long ago realized that people have a short attention span and will rarely remember the times you consider embarassing. I made an ass of myself when I was 15 singing for my ex at her school on her bday thinking it would be romantic since I saw it on tv. Really bad move. She had a look of horror that mirrored a murder victim. We ran into each other not too long ago and just have a good laugh about it now. I'd rather regret the things I've done than the things I didn't and at the time I loved that girl, well as much as a 15 year old could and I am happy I took a chance to express that. It's preparing me to give my all to the right woman. No holding back life is too short to hold back. Just my bs philosophy I guess.

 

Not bullshit, just your way. I still cringe over embarrassing things I did when I was six LOL

I do not like being out of control, ever, except in very private situations. That's just *my* way. I can't fault someone else for being different, but people who know me know I wouldnt welcome being put on the spot in public.

Years ago I had a friend who had a dinner party at Christmas...we all cooked, and this was her idea of a gift to us. So, I'm sitting at a table with 20 people knowing only three of them and she announces "So, everyone, Pixie is a witch. Pixie, say something witchy."

Thank gods the guy I knew was a guyl who was a client I read cards for, and he'd gotten me totally high on our way to the dinner, or I think I would have chucked a plate of rolls at her.

 

You smoke :smt107:

Nice:grin:

 

burn the witch!!



i was meaning to catch this earlier today on tv (the crucible)....damn..

 

ROFL you have to remember when I grew up. Out here, I can have a license for it. I did last year, but I didnt get it renewed because it's a hassle, it doesn't help the MS, and my son's girl's dad grows it if I want it. He also has a license.

 

LOL Yeah, I read, but I don't use that particular deck. I have a collection of decks but only two I really read with. Though the first cards I read were regular playing cards - my grandmother taught me.

 

Crappy history, of course, but it was really about the Red Scare and McCarthyism.

Two of the women executed in Salem, Mary Easty and Rebecca Nurse, were many many times great aunts of mine. No, they were not witches

 

Wow, she is beautiful.

 

And a classy trooper to boot. Dude picks his crushes well. :smt023

 

LOL - you should see her on the field!