You didn't let any of us down and have nothing to apologise for. It takes courage to be open, honest and vulnerable in the first place, and you've been brave enough to share you inner feelings you're trying to navigate through. No two people are the same and a lot of people lack confidence, myself included. But where you lack, you also prosper, you have a lot of self discipline from being a martial artist and that's a commendable trait to carry. Just keep being unapologetically you, don't compare yourself to anyone else in this life, we're all in our different peaks and phases, stages and failures. Grow yourself mentally, physically, spiritually daily, a manifest the sht outta acquiring the white woman of your dreams. We're rooting for ya X
