Random Conversation 2.0

The funeral came to past and even though there were laughs, there were also sadness looming over. I hated seeing my own brother laying in a coffin, cold and lifeless. This day should have only been about the elections. But no, there was something else along the way and it's this untimely event. It was a good funeral, but still heavily sad due to the person who departed.

Still, my parents are whom I'm most concerned about. With events like Thanksgiving, Christmas, his Birthday, and then Easter, all will be a dark cloud because of that memory from Nov. 1st. My dad's voice cracked a bit and given his background in law enforcement, he's always been a stoic person. Even when his own dad died, he remained firmed, though he shed a tear or two. As for my mom, she's still reliving that night over and over again. Even as far as replaying the video from the funeral. It's heartbreaking. She's reliving that nightmare every single day. I can only tell you this much...because of this event, I doubt they'll have long on this earth as well. A torn heart from the loss of a loved one can truly give way quicker.

As for me? I've wept a few times, staring at him for long periods, talking to him and my relatives about the good days young and such. Right now, as I'm typing this, I'm still shedding tears and it'll take a long time to recover. I still wish all of this was either a joke or a nightmare to wake up from. But no, that's not the case and I haven't really been the same since then. Sure, there have been some level of normalcy here by talking with people, but it doesn't erase the memory altogether. I just have to keep strong.

I know for a fact that they are unable to sleep because of this whole matter. Every time they wake up in the morning, they see that spot where he took his own life and knowing he's no longer there, everything went topsy turvy. It'll take until their final hours to finally come to terms with it.

And yet, there is a silver lining to it all...

He was suffering, despite having a loving family who protected him through all sorts of danger and harm. With Asperger's Syndrome, he's unable to cope with everything. In the long run, there are no worries of what happens to him when my parents are gone and wondering who will be his caretaker. I see it as that. He'll be cremated soon and then brought back home to my parents on Wednesday of this week. I took photos of him before the funeral, as a reminder of who he was. I'm going to miss him.

 

I have officially moved to Houston, Texas!

and it SUCKS.

The roads are as if no one pays taxes. How someone's shocks survive a year is beyond me.
Driving from Florida to Texas should never be done in one day.
The one good thing I can say is that I have sushi classes.

 

My heartfelt sympathies to you and your family BBW....words are difficult at these times, but remembering him will always hold him close to your heart...!

 

For work?

 

Yup, a new job.
It was hard leaving my old job(felt like I was leaving family)


Change is always so hard. I am sure I will get use to it.


Also Louisiana is beautiful!

It is hard to get use to their accents.

At the same time, I think I saw at least 5 cops pull people over while I drove through there.

 

Congrats on the job fam. Let us know how the women are out thete

 

Neither did I

'twas a fab day nonetheless

 

Congrats angel

 

Good luck in your new job and home.

 

I am so sorry for your family's loss. I am glad you were able to make it through a very difficult day

Sometimes it helps when we have something of our own we can remember our loved ones by. I hope you can eventually find comfort in knowing this...

<3 much love to you

 

that's awful

 

The other thing I noticed about Texas is how many people have pickup trucks and the gigantic buildings on I-10 to Houston

 

Bloody hell, that's scary as hell and so blatant

 

BBW,

Sorry about your loss, my prayers to you and your family.
Stay strong and keep a close eye on your parents health. I have seen Takotsubo cardiomyopathy in people who lost their loved ones, especially a child. Hope they stay strong and healthy.

 

Tam...I truly sorry that you had to witness such hate....I dont know about you when I see such hate it tears at little whole into my soul...Once Im around positive people my soul is mad whole again...Hate is everywhere but its how you deal with it that is important.
Never ever let One's opion become your eternity

Have a Great Day....Better yet have two great days and give one away...The Joy of Giving

 

So damn revolting. Makes you wonder what he has planned for 'tonight" to be so effin bold.

 

Where in H-town are you living in?
I took me about a year to stop hating Houston, then I loved it. Its generally ugly, flood prone, bug and mold infested - but there is something about that city that I Love.